Good Meets Evil

Real world is just ridiculous. 6 weeks into work, I've relearned and learned more stuff for WAG than I did working throughout school. It really is different when your status goes from intern to RPh. How? Initially, you learn the basics and work on getting the foundation down. Then, you think about all the stuff you learn in Rx school and try to apply it qd. Then, you have to think over and over again, is this script I typed in right? Are there drug interactions? Does the directions make sense? Is this new for the patient? Is the patient preg? etc etc. The responsibilities are really on your shoulders and we are the last line of defense before giving the patient their medications. I double check myself a lot. Since work started, I have gotten beaten down by so many patients, gave someone sterile water instead of a flu shot, had a patient told me that I looked too young to be getting advice from and walked away from me, had a guy nearly faint on me while giving a flu shot, and made many girls cry when giving their flu shots. At least, I didn't get robbed again like I did last year.

Dwelling on the bad does not get you anywhere and it just hinders you from doing other stuff too. Keep cautious and be aware. When things put you down, always get back up and try again and never give up. Know when the battle is over. Through all the crap, don't forget to look at the good in life too. We got the family that's always going to be there for you. The friends who are always in your life whether it's to sit down and chat with you and listen to your war stories or to grab a drink and get reassurance that life is still decent out there. Enjoy the time off and get some time to yourself to meditate and/or work out. Get those endorphin levels up.

Lately, I've been feeling really off. Not sure if it's the stress or other things, but I've been losing sleep like crazy. I'm finally back into the habit of waking up early again. The schedule has kind of been less erratic. Still waiting on eligibility on health insurance. Figuring out my finances and how much of the loans I need to pay off. The 6 weeks off really did hurt me in the long run, but that's done and done with it. Gotta deal with the consequences now. Going off the grid next weekend to get some time to myself.