Faster, Stronger, Smarter...

The past three months have been the most intense months ever in my pharmacy life. I couldn't believe how much crap I have gone through. Honestly, it really makes me believe that there are terrible people in this world. Do I believe that I've become a better person? Did I learn a lot? Nope. At that time, I learned a good amount, but learning in fear is possibly the worst thing ever. The stress that I endured on a daily basis for 6 weeks has really damaged my self confidence or what little I had to begin with. It would have been a great experience. It would have been something that I would love to internalize. I promise one day that I would make sure that the students following behind me will not suffer. Whether it be my fair warning or to become like a coordinator, I wouldn't want anyone to go through the pain and stress that I went through ever.

How stressful you must ask? When reopening the subject again 6 weeks later, I couldn't finish talking about how bad this rotation was. I broke down really badly. It was like PTSD. I somehow made all the girls cry in the room at the regional meeting. I could tell that everyone really was watching out for me. If it wasn't for my classmates, I wouldn't be in walking across the stage in a week with them. I truly believe that all the pain and suffering that we all went through together the past four years has really made us a family. Not the blood relating type of family, but the cry together, through the worst times, through the best times kind of family. It's good to know that there are people that will watch your back.

Even with all the terribleness in this world, there are good people out there. I've had good mentors that has rebuilt me to be a better person. I've had the greatest friends to take care of me when I needed someone to talk to. I've had good support from my family when I was at my worst. The one thing I appreciate are good friends, family, and relationships that evolve from it.