Being spoiled for 3 months really put you behind from the rest of your classmates. It was fun while it lasted. Met a few new faces, reestablished some old bonds due to the hectic schedule i had, and enjoying rebuilding myself physically. Insanity workout: completed. Wt loss: 20 lb. WIN. Don't believe me? It's improvements here and there, not like the 6 pack fully just yet. My core still sucks, but my tummy is flat, my baby fat on my face is less, etc etc.
It sucks now that I will get a chance to barely work out now. I'm way too scared to not study at this point in my life. I've never ever been in a hospital setting before. Let alone..getting pimped on a daily basis now is something completely different to me. Tyler is right...it's a completely different kind of stress. I love the community setting because it's just non-stop and I move around like crazy.I know the system. I talk to people left and right. I stay in one area and there are windows!
The hospital setting...wake up early...prepare for rounds...go to rounds...check out orders...adjust warfarin/lovenox/vanco...study and get pimped...find interventions...get frustrated with yourself on a daily basis for still not knowing what exactly to do. I was THIS close to breaking down at the end of the day. These 11 hours days are killing my soul slowly. Whatever confidence I had is completely gone now. I hope it does get better, otherwise I worry that residency is not my path to get better now.
Off to studying my people. Mikey over and out.
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