Natural Highs

1 Rotation down, 6 to go. 1 exam down, 2 to go. After getting the news of passing the exam, I get that feeling of relieve and this release of endorphins that just makes me shake a bit. I could tell because I was trying to text the other P4s and I just noticed my hands were just so shaky. I can definitely tell you the few times I felt like this: the first number I got in college, my acceptance letter/e-mail from UT pharmacy school, my good deal on my TV, and of course after every insane exam pharmacy school has thrown to my face. In my position, there isn't any room to mess up, so I gotta keep at my best and be on my toes for the next 10 months.

While many of my classmates have already or has started their hospital rotations, I feel ridiculously behind because the only thing I have under my belt is the advance community setting and academics. I'm not really complaining, but I feel worthless and definitely will not be prepared for the next rotation, Adult Internal Medicine.

On this rotation, it's a bit of a reading here and there, projects left and right, and I have a few presentations to show the P3s. Still figuring out topics on anti-microbial  and my final project of something to change the whole pharmacy school aspect as well. Good thing it's at the beginning of the school year. Lot of resting and a starting back up to exercise again. I got bombarded with studying for the ambulatory exam, so I've been putting it off doing it once every other day or so, but I'm gonna try to restart it for at least two more weeks and then I may just do it every other day to remain in good shape.

I've really learn to take care of myself and not have the whole world on my shoulders every day. Strangely, I didn't realize how much weight I've lost until so many people commented on my physical aspect. I really haven't seen anyone in 2 months, so it seemed like a big deal, but I'm not one to brag about it or anything like that. I've been doing this for myself and doctor's orders too. I may have sublimely done this for other reasons besides health, but I didn't want to rely on something to motivate me to keep trucking along. I've developed a mentality to keep pushing myself to my limits. Have I changed? Maybe. Have I become some sort of douchebag? Hell no. I'm still the good person that I am, but with a bit more confidence. Even some of my professors were like saying that somethings different about me in a good way.

I have an idea what my path is now for the future after this summer's rotation and break. Midyear to give me an idea, but who knows? Until next time...