Rotations UPDATE

Ok even though the rough draft just came out, majority of us got our rotation list unofficially. By unofficially, we asked around for the website link to check out where they would assign us. It's one of those things where we have to know otherwise it'll eat us alive. There should have been an e-mail sent to us to let us know what our rotation sites are, but we just can't wait...SERIOUSLY we can't.

Unfortanately, for people that were assigned to other location such as Houston, they are still in the pending status. Most of my sites are in Austin which is super sweet because the thought of renting at two different places would kill me financially. I feel bad for other people that have to drive at the far end of towns....Dripping springs, Kileen, Waco, Fort Hood. I didn't get all the sites I wanted, but I'm happy with what I have. I just have this gut instinct that I will learn a lot and I will get dominated in a way where I will get the information drilled in my head.

After being in school for about two weeks, I realize that I still feel a bit unprepared when I walk into the classrooms. I couldn't save myself in lab for the life of me. It was like all this knowledge that I learned the past two and half years just disappeared on me. This is like what I want to be good at. The disease state, the drugs, the lab values, the presentations, the ability to be articulate my speech so I don't feel stupid in front of my professors and peers.

Work is just getting worse. They've officially cut my hours to almost once a month now. I went to talk to my boss about putting me on intern leave so that I can remain dormant in the system and I don't have to worry about that anymore. I don't really care much about working a lot since I have to focus on school, but lately I've been picking up my co-workers shift when they either have gotten sick or leaving town. It worked out well for me these past week. I've been able to use up all of my vacation days since it's on an hour per day basis pay for vacay time. I'm sure things will change pretty soon with the new central filling that they are working on.

More to come in due time kids.

Rotations!

Honestly, I didn't think I would get this far in pharmacy school. It's gotta taken some skills for me to really pull some amazing clutch moves. If you know how I roll back in undergrad, I'm pretty much doing the exact same thing right now. I work my butt off at the end to do some amazing stuff like Rho Chi level smart. I wish I am able to extract that in me all the time because I just hate how scared where I put myself.

Rotations is a hybrid between the real world and school. Think of it as the training wheels on your bike for a year. Where you learn your mistakes. Figure out what you can do so you don't kill your patient. Understand why you're making this decision. It's pretty much three years of pharmacy school all in one year. Gonna meet preceptors this week soon to see what to expect. I feel a bit lost because I still don't know what I want to do still. Do I need to work on my Peds, Hem/Onc, Critical Care, Psych, and Internal Medicine? Am I really sticking with Walgreens for a while? Should I still sell my soul for another year to ensure my security of a job?  I feel like I need to get drilled so that I can be prepared to get those training wheels off. Definitely save the world.

Cough and Statuses

So much for being superman. I got better thankfully, but this cough still continues and it's insanely bothersome. I think I had the same problem 4 years ago when I was just straight up coughing non-stop. I finally cave in and bought Delsym. I hate taking any medicine for anything. I believe in letting the body heal itself and that you become stronger and faster so that you can fight against whatever is thrown at you. This "FLU" is making people worrisome and the flu vaccine is already short supplied. The last time I had a flu shot was 3 years ago and before that, 5 years ago. The last time I really got sick was my first year of pharmacy school spring semester during finals. That was terrible. I struggled every day to study and barely made it through. This cough along with my raccoon face tan from Dallas weekend goes great together.

So with all of this ability to talk to one another: Gtalk, skype, AIM, meebo, ebuddy, google voice, text messaging, phone, facebook, myspace, e-mail, etc. I have the feeling that people just ignore statuses and messages that I believe are there for a good reason. Take for example when I posted my symptoms when i was feeling off balanced; it was a way to let people know I might be sick, but just be careful around me. I'd figured I put my status on everything possible to let people know certain things. It's just upsetting that people will still don't get the message sometimes. I can understand away messages: hi i'm really away somewhere or I'm here but i'm busy and you're allowed to distract me.

I might turn off my text messaging, but it seems kinda essential these days. I told myself that If i ever went over my 200 limit a month that I would just cancel it. Money's an issue for me kind of. I've been debating about whether or not to sale my soul to walgreen's for another year. I've already committed two years...not sure if i should do one more. It would be great income to have to spend on awesomeness. I don't know we'll see.

Infinite Universe, TV Shows

As a sciency kind of person, I like to think about like the parallels of the world. Is there really another version of us in another world with some sort of small variation? This was a concept on Fringe. Strangely enough, I have a theory of my own. Though it is possible to think that there is another version of us in a totally different universe, but what about the one we are now? I bet there's like a guy that looks just like me probably in west coast california at USC (GASP!) or up in east coast boston at Harvard. Ha ok, so let's make it even more weird. Apparently, there's someone here at UT that looks just like me when I was walking into Jester a few years ago. Not that I go on that side a lot anyways anymore, but it was strange. This dude came up to me and was like what up. And what do I do? I just did the little head tilt thing and said what up back and kept walking. Haha i know i know, but I mean i didn't want to embarass the guy. This didn't happen just once, but like a few times just walking on that side of campus by like random people too.

Anyways, let's look at the TV shows season premieres:

House: Amazing. You see House actually becoming more human in a way. And at the same time, the cinema and the art of the episode touches your heart in a way when House figures out the situation or it finally resolved itself at the end.

HIMYM: Funny as usual. Sandy and I were laughing hysterically at this one scene where Ted didn't know how to spell Professor. All the anxiety and Barney's advice went to Ted's head. What a great show. I think I finished all 4 seasons within a week's time during the summer. Like reading people's facebook status, this show has like exploded somehow. It's pretty amazing.

Heroes: Kinda see the plot evolving in a way with the new characters and seeing how all of this connects. It sucks knowing that Sylar is really Nathan, Peter's power still sucks, Hiro's dying, and Matt is going crazy. Hopefully it gets better. I hate the fact that Peter isn't like the most powerful Hero anymore. It bothers me how like his power got stripped away from him and he can't obtain all the powers he want at the same time.

Fringe: I love new concepts and ideas of course as you can see from the initial posting of my blog. The pattern, the book, soldiers, etc etc. You see the fight between good and evil in a blurry grey area. Who can you really trust now? Hopefully Olivia can figure it out soon.

The Office: Michael, as always, gets excited about the most obscure things and just over exaggerate it. I'm gonna be honest, I had those moments where I just thought Michael was just frustrating to watch. I kinda stopped watching it for a while, but season three was amazing. I love the Bros before Hos speech in the Benihana Episode.

Greek: I'm still all about Team Cappie. It's kinda like the O.C. in a way. Boy loses girl, boy tries to get girl, fails, girl wants guy, but guy knows whats right and wrong, etc. It's a great formula I must say.

GG: It was definitely a bit hard to remember all the details from the past seasons to piece together all the parts for the new season. I was trying to explain some of the characters to my friend and she just completely blanked out on who some of the characters were. The way I explained it made it sound like I was obsessed with the show. Oh Lonely Boy, way to move up the ladder to the good life now.

Sadly, I just have this ridiculous memory for TV shows, but not for studying. It sucks badly. If only I can harness this power to school, life would be sweet.

If only this cough can go away. I just got it like today. Damn you pharmacy school. How could you become this infested pool of students. Oh right, we contain it among ourselves and get each other sick instead of the whole school. I blame you Viet for going to Zax's and ordering that Calamari and sharing that marinara sauce. FAIL =/

Sous Chef and Iron Chef

Glad to have some old friends back in Austin again. It brings back good memories and a lot of catch up to do. Kuntz and I just marinated a lot of food for the game tomorrow. Drumsticks, sirloin steaks, hamburger meat, hot dogs, sausages. Individually, we're both like good cooks, but together, we're like a killer team. Our ideas just make sense and creative all at the same time. We're working on this theory between marinating a steak overnight and using a spray bottle with butter, water, special seasonings, etc when we start cooking them to see which one taste better. In the kitchen, I'm pretty much sous chef when we're both there. I do all the insane work, but I lack presentation skills apparently. If you have tried my cooking, you know I roll deep.

Starting to study now. Feels like school again. Kinda feels nice.

Game day tomorrow. Where my horns at? Wear that burnt orange proudly wherever you are....Nashville, Boston, Miami, San Fransisco...put them horns up

Assumptions

When people know you or think they know you, they sort of tell you what to do or shall i say assume that you would do it. it's one of my biggest pet peeve when people assume that I will do something instead of asking. How dare you tell me what to do without asking or letting know what the situation is? I do have my things to do and I have stuff to take care myself. Don't get me involved in new things that I don't want to be apart of. I know I have the capabilities of doing things, but I've been dying to just chill out and not have to worry about the world. I've taken so many bullets for people for so long, I don't even know if people would just want to shove me in the way 'cause they think I will do it. Is that wrong? I'm I being selfish here? I don't know. I'm mentally and physically exhausted with all of his. I just want to sit back and wait with everyone else.

Goodbye P2. Hello P3

The past year definitely had it's ups and downs.

schoolwise: there have been one too many occasions with the clutch win. I can't have this in the future as I come to the point where the patient's life will be in my hands. I need to be aware that I know what I am doing and have confidence that I won't kill my patient in the future. I'm glad I'm still in school where they'll teach us our mistakes and what to do in all sorts of situation. Rotations will be definitely something to look forward to. After this past summer, I definitely know that law school would dominate me. Even though it was a 3 hour nonstop class every week all summer, it was just exhausting to have. Mind you that this was just TX pharmacy law, I can't even grasp to know how law school is. Good luck to my law school people.

the fall semester has been pretty laid back so far. 7 hours! WHAT UP! Vegas is something to look forward to for the pharmacy conference. Even if I don't get a stipend, having no finals is so much better. this year. my goal is to finish strong. do all i can.

lifewise: i'm feeling like Ted Mosby right now seeing people around you getting married and about to get married and everything. Kinda makes you want to look for something like that. it's that moment where you stare across the room and that someone just catches your eye. my thing is what if i already missed that opportunity or what if I didn't know it or realize it. will fate somehow give me another shot at this? what if that person was just right under my nose and i had no idea about it? i worry when i work full time, it's game over for me.

i'm definitely gonna try to travel a bit to see some friends nationwide. TN is a definite must. i'll figure it out one way or another.